Besides lead falls, there are other things I’m afraid of.
Like allowing myself to shed a frustrated tear when a boulder problem repeatedly shuts me down.
Like telling people passing through the shop that yeah, I work in a climbing shop but I really don’t climb that hard (yet.)
Like telling people that I love that I can’t be there with them because I have to selfishly pursue something as trivial as repeatedly scaling rock faces.
Like committing to a career and suffering through days behind a desk when I could be outside and doing what I love.
Climbing is an art form and lifestyle that repeatedly shoves fear in your face. It springs itself upon you and you have to decide what you’re going to do with it: listen to it and back down, ease off and choose a safer alternative? Or do you quell it and prove to yourself that you are capable, competent and strong?
I’m a climber. I’m not a particularly strong or brave climber, but goddamn it, I’ve got a little fight in me.